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Name: Katherine
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 9/8/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: I'm a trance addict queen and a jewelry junkie. And I won't even get into my style of clothes..
I'm also a 1950's drama princess and movie buff (heehee, betcha can't be me at Scene it! xD) And if I'm not remixing music (some of which is specially featured on my site) I'm so catching up on my latest manga. That's right folks, I'm an anime addict. And no, I didn't just get into the trend; I've been watching anime and reading manga before speed racer came into play (old school anime for you ignorant ones)
Yeah, so you're gonna see a bunch of anime everything in my blog. I cosplay at conventions (dun care whatcha say, I do it so damn you all) And I'm currently drawing my own manga and webcomic.
My obbessitiy was and still is JAPAN! Woot for the little red dot. (many you won't get this >>)
I have two best friends who just returned back to japan in June so I want to make a special notice them. (Hey Yuki and Momoko!) So yeah, I'm done. Haha, I'm gonna be a foreign exchange student to
Expertise: I'd say SARCASM. (Ironically I'm not being it at the moment. xD) Really though, I'd could kick your ass in a battle of wits, but lets not get into that.
I'm probably an excellent cook. I just finished a cooking contest in my highschool's FCCLA. (I won 2nd place! against a senior though..) I'm always baking something...mmm
I would also say I'm a pretty good artist. I do like the anime/manga style, but my realism and abstract isn't so bad. I've won a couple of awards for my art and I'm hoping to get into animation and the media arts as a career if my manga and music mixing doesn't take off.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Other
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Thursday, June 01, 2006
Currently Watching
Losing Isaiah
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Hey everyone. Or no one, I
suppose it doesn't really matter. I never update anyway so it wouldn't
surprise me to know that no one will read this. But I'll write it
anyway.
I wanted to thank everyone who's helped me out these past few weeks.
With school and illness and just generally being a friend to me.
Thanks. I know how tough I am to be around sometimes; with all my
whining and complaining and my general "life sucks and I don't want
hear this bullshit" attitude and I really just wanted to say thank you
so much for putting up with me. The summer is upon us, hell, it's here
and we are finally relieved of school. But I'm not going to stop
learning. And I don't think any of you should either. Just take life
one step at a time but don't forget what you've already gone through. I
was planning on graduating next year. Everything seemed to go fine but
I've made a sudden decision not to. I'm doing post-secondary fulltime
at OSU as a senior before I go to college at Columbia. Just remember
everyone, looking for college is tough, but NOT impossible!
Everyone take care! My life isn't really all that important to talk
about I suppose (Celebrate with me! My hunny and I have been dating for
7 months now and still going strong) As for anything else. Call me <3
~Katherine
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Currently Listening
Lovers Live
Choose me or die
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Right....hey look at that I found the new blog entry button >> *hides*
Well lets see, what's new..it's been what a month? since I posted;
kay...um; still lookin for scholarships it seems and I got into the
career center xD I'm doing Information Technology (YAYZ for ME <3)
so anywho, along with semi-boring learning networking, C programming
and some PC repair, I also get to learn photo editting (yayz) Video
Edittings (YAYZ) and Digital Animation (DOUBLE YAYZ-ERS <3)
>> I finally got some music on my site lol. *ahem* It's
from an anime called "Paradise Kiss" << which I've never actually
seen but I was on Gendou.com looking and so the song so I listen and
wow, they've got sweet music xD
As for my stalker ash; I had him last year, I had him last year but it
still goes back and forth. o.O he's a fiesty one. *ahem at least more
than you know who* I was bending over my lunch table one day talking to
my friend Kay and he snapped the strap of my thong! *gasp* o.o yeah I
slapped him hard for that one. (o.O that was probably the worst of it
though) anywho >> that's all I have to say other than YAYZ cause
I'm happy and my boyfriend and I are still dating and everything is
going UBER ^_^
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Currently Gaming
Tales of Symphonia
By Namco
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>_> Okay...so...I'm updating...for once
....
...............
.......................don't hit me! *hides* <__< >___> Anmesia dust! *ahem*
Well as it seems...it's almost Christmas and I'm finally updating..Now I just need something to say. ¬ ¬
I'll start with this; I get my license soon ^_^ like, in January. I
could have had it in early september but I was busy over the
summer...and stuff. Oh oh! And I got a new boyfriend ^_^; He's such a
sweetie *giant smile* ¬ ¬ I must have a thing for tall guys or
something..because my last 3 boyfriends were 5'11 6'0 and my current is
6'2. (hey they're tall to me! I'm short : D ) Which reminds me..I still
have a bunch of christmas shopping to do..gah! I've been sick for a
couple days and haha bitches I'm off school for another snow day xD
Thank you Knox County! Things have been much better now ^_^; I feel
loved...
Of course I can never get ahold you Ashley (Lamer) -.- I'm gonna beat
you Missie. Mwhaha and I forgot to tell you Ash! I got a new stalker!
xDDDD As if I don't have enough as it is : P (surprising isn't it? Me?
Have a stalker? Noooo) But to the point of matters...Guess what
everyone! I've got some art in Russia ^_^;
I was selected for a gallery to have my art featured there; cool isn't
it? Heehee I didn't even think I had that good of stuff, but it's all
good. I'm looking at colleges and ironically (by no means did this
happen on purpose) my honey and I have been looking into the same
college! Heehee. (btw, looking into Columbia College in Chicago [IL])
That or maybe Brook Institute of Photography, Santa Barbara (o_O isn't
that were Tricia goes?) Heehee, Sullivian college in Louisville KY (I
know Kentucky >>) but Sullivian is really nice! 100% job
placement...people go on to higher things there...and they have
APARTMENTS! Not dorms, APARTMENTS...of course tutition is like 40k a
year >< who the hell can afford that? Anyway..just looking for
scholarships it seems. Yeah, so I'll post some art if you guys are
interested (or not? O_o oh well too bad for yous)
This would be me and my sweetie ^_^;; also my best friend xD or that's
what he was at the time of this drawing. (newbie photoshopper btw)
********
This would be a drawing of my character Medamoria; from another current
manga called "Queen of the Graves." It's about princess (cheesy at
first) who learned the art of necromacy (controlling the dead/ bring
the dead to life..sort of) so she could bring back her lover that her
father killed (Her lover was a grave keeper) After the performance
however, she found herself unable to give up the art and stayed a
necromancer. Throughout the years she found herself in a place where
The god of heaven and the demon of hell are fighting for her soul as
well as war with each other over the souls that Medamoria has
commanded. Should the souls of the dead, stay dead or are they fair
game for the living? (that was a brief on the story. I'm still working
out some kinks)
Another drawing of medamoria; slightly different style. The drawing is
titled "Reaching for Hell" Refering to that matter of her life are
upside down and her logic is twisted. ..so forth and so on..
This my friend, is Jameson ^_^; >> BISHIE! Lineart AND coloring
done by me Thanks ^_^; He's the Prince from a short story I'm writing
called "A Step Beneath Me" It's a rather twist tale of Shakespeare's
Romeo and Juliet; with the similarities of two people, two kingdoms,
tragedy and murder, however in my tale, it has a lot about politcal
science and the stance of a monarchy. Aerabella, my main character and
her best friend Jameson, are from two kingdoms. Aerabella is from the
West Kingdom and Jameson from the East. However the East Kingdom is
falling into ruins while the West is prosperous (sp o.O) anywho their
fathers arrange for them to be married to save the East kingdom and
unite them. However, Aerabella, who by no means would disagree being
married to her best friend refuses the proposal. She does not want to
be part of the monarchy, and no long part of the Royal family. Jameson
however, has gentle and kind hearted as he is (but by no means weak)
would do anything for his dear Aerabella except refuse the marriage!
For he wants to save his people. As you can see where this is going,
there is bound to be problems. There's some gangs, rivalries and
>_> and a lot of sword fighting and poison. Any feedback?
Well that's it for now...perhaps I'll update in another year? : D Just
joking...(seriously. if I can remember >>) anyway Take care
everyone!
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Currently Reading
Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus: The Classic Guide to Understanding the Opposite Sex
By John Gray
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Yay well, new update. **laughes insanely** >.> actually peeps,
I've had nothing but club crackers and diet coke for two days straight
after being locked in my room, so yeah I'm a bit hyper..you should feel
special to see my hyper! mwhahahah...*cough* okay so yeah..
Well as for updates I really don't know what to say today. So I shall
rant about my family problems because my confounded friend james is not
on right now for me to vent to *sigh* So you all have to be stuck
listening...
You see this was me at the age of 13
-------------------------------->>>
I was somewhat happy because 1. my mother was not yet married w00t. And
I did not have my son of a bitch cold heartless stepfather around.
(realize I'm just ranting here becasue I'm angry) and 2. I didn't move
yet. So you know, I had JUST started making some friends at Tree (Tree
of Life, old school here) and then I LEAVE. And you want to know where
I have to go? CENTERBURG. It's LITERALLY the MIDDLE of the MIDDLE of
NOWHERE. People grow their own Marijuana here...and no one knows. And
because centerburg is so freakin' poor, they snort bacon bits because
they can't afford to get crack and there's more pigs than people. (Not
to mention a few ((who am I kidding, most)) of the guys in the school
are just as much as the pigs on their farms.) I mean, I thought it was
bad that when I walked home from school at Tree I had to alternate my
routes because of stalkers and perverts. ((for heaven's sake people I'm
not even that pretty *points to picture*)) But at Centerburg I've never
had to kick so many guys in the balls for grabbing my ass. It's
horrible. And the dress code is horrible strict so it's not like I look
like a slut or something. Hell I'm known for my layers. (The skirt over
pants is so my style by NY NY baby!) And I KNOW I'm not the nicest
person there. My layers come with attitude and so does my debate
skills. It's like the students there have never seen someone actually
say something BACK to a teacher. So after having guys tickle my sides
to no end, I'm fed up with school. humph..
As for my family, Well my mother is bitchier than usual. And I already
mentioned what I thought about my step father. After having nothing but
screaming and yelling and hair pulling, punching, kicking and biting.
Stealling and lying and starving for weeks on end this summer. I'm
ready to leave. So I told my mother to leave me the fuck along and
locked myself in my room ((hence the whole crackers and coke thing)).
They said I if I wanted to leave I could. So I'm lookin' cause one I
leave, I ain't never comin' back. Eva. Neva eva eva. ((It's summer, and
no I don't generally pronounce my "ever"s with an a, {{inside joke
yo}}))
So yeah, I'm kinda a bit homeless right now. Well not literally. I
could be living next door with my friend at my old house, or I could
living in Australia. ((exaggerated example thanks)) It's just really
unpredicitable. My mother claims she doesn't want me to leave. But I
just can't stand being in that house. I can't stand looking at her and
seeing her smile at me just knowing that maybe even 5 minutes later she
could be bitchin' at me because I forgot something or there's always
something wrong. It's like the expect me to be perfect. Well let me
tell you something folks. I'M FUCKING NOT! I never was, and I hell for
sure will never be. Ever since I was a young child, nothing I did was
right. I took care of everything because my fucking father had to go
out and get drunk or beat me up. Well you know what, I'm sick of being
the respoinsible one. I'm sick of having to take care of my mentally
insane sister and knowing full well I can't get anything I want in my
life. I'm sick of just being handed money just to get out my mother's
face because she can't stand to look at me. You want to know how hard
that is on me? I'll tell you how hard. I've tried to drown myself in a
bathtub more time than you can count but never could beacuse I knew
that the only reason I wanted to die so bad was to run from my stupid
life and rub in my mother face that I was DEAD. But I never could. So I
drag myself out and lay and bed and cry. I'd cry myself to sleep
because it was the only time I could cry. No one would have to see me.
No one would have to ask me "what's wrong kya?" or adam wouldn't have
to say to me "Let me make it better kya-koi" Because there was nothing
anyone could do to make it better. Nothing.
So yeah...I'm done now..
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Currently Listening
One Fierce Beer Coaster
By The Bloodhound Gang
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Yeah, alright. So here's the first glimpse into the life of me. (You can just feel the joy)
Yeah well life here in Centerburg really sucks. I live next to cows...gaaah. 
As
most of you might know, I'm starting the joy of remixing music. My
currents are just gaming music...you know, a couple of chrono trigger,
so WW and OoT Zelda, FF(X). I'll probably find a way to share it
somehow you know..
Lately though, I've been in a debate about the MJ
trial. I'm so pissed off at the verdict. I mean think about...it's okay
to be DIFFERENT..but he's just a freakin' nut. I'm sure we all know we
have eccentric celeberities, but Jackson has crossed the line. And he
was NOT guilty on all the stupid charges. And he's BROKE. That kinda
tells you something. Frankly I believe the jurers were bribed
nonetheless. And furthermore, earlier in the whole stupid situation, MJ
had to pay the accusor to keep their mouth shut. (What the...) I mean,
if there was nothing wrong, then why the hell did you have to pay
them...HMMMM?
I already know we have a screwed up justice system.
I've had experience somewhat with it. It just pisses me off so much
that people like him can get away because of the freakin' greed we have
as americans. All because he's a celb, doesn't mean he doesn't touch
little boys in wrong places people! Hell, he's so screwed up he
probably do it more than we think.
Okay okay, I'm done with my
rant now..not much else to say other than go to my message board! woot.
(yeah it's anime, big deal. it's more than that too) LINKAGE! My board. Go. NOW
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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Katherine Country: United States State: Ohio Birthday: 9/8/1989 Gender: Female Interests: I'm a trance addict queen and a jewelry junkie. And I won't even get into my style of clothes.. I'm also a 1950's drama princess and movie buff (heehee, betcha can't be me at Scene it! xD) And if I'm not remixing music (some of which is specially featured on my site) I'm so catching up on my latest manga. That's right folks, I'm an anime addict. And no, I didn't just get into the trend; I've been watching anime and reading manga before speed racer came into play (old school anime for you ignorant ones) Yeah, so you're gonna see a bunch of anime everything in my blog. I cosplay at conventions (dun care whatcha say, I do it so damn you all) And I'm currently drawing my own manga and webcomic. My obbessitiy was and still is JAPAN! Woot for the little red dot. (many you won't get this >>) I have two best friends who just returned back to japan in June so I want to make a special notice them. (Hey Yuki and Momoko!) So yeah, I'm done. Haha, I'm gonna be a foreign exchange student to Expertise: I'd say SARCASM. (Ironically I'm not being it at the moment. xD) Really though, I'd could kick your ass in a battle of wits, but lets not get into that. I'm probably an excellent cook. I just finished a cooking contest in my highschool's FCCLA. (I won 2nd place! against a senior though..) I'm always baking something...mmm I would also say I'm a pretty good artist. I do like the anime/manga style, but my realism and abstract isn't so bad. I've won a couple of awards for my art and I'm hoping to get into animation and the media arts as a career if my manga and music mixing doesn't take off. Occupation: Artist Industry: Other Message: message meEmail: email me Website: visit my website AIM: BlackIcePrismMSN: Prism_of_BlackIce@hotmail.com Yahoo: Member Since: 6/22/2005 |
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Thursday, June 01, 2006
I wanted to thank everyone who's helped me out these past few weeks. With school and illness and just generally being a friend to me. Thanks. I know how tough I am to be around sometimes; with all my whining and complaining and my general "life sucks and I don't want hear this bullshit" attitude and I really just wanted to say thank you so much for putting up with me. The summer is upon us, hell, it's here and we are finally relieved of school. But I'm not going to stop learning. And I don't think any of you should either. Just take life one step at a time but don't forget what you've already gone through. I was planning on graduating next year. Everything seemed to go fine but I've made a sudden decision not to. I'm doing post-secondary fulltime at OSU as a senior before I go to college at Columbia. Just remember everyone, looking for college is tough, but NOT impossible! Everyone take care! My life isn't really all that important to talk about I suppose (Celebrate with me! My hunny and I have been dating for 7 months now and still going strong) As for anything else. Call me <3 ~Katherine | |||
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Well lets see, what's new..it's been what a month? since I posted; kay...um; still lookin for scholarships it seems and I got into the career center xD I'm doing Information Technology (YAYZ for ME <3) so anywho, along with semi-boring learning networking, C programming and some PC repair, I also get to learn photo editting (yayz) Video Edittings (YAYZ) and Digital Animation (DOUBLE YAYZ-ERS <3) >> I finally got some music on my site lol. *ahem* It's from an anime called "Paradise Kiss" << which I've never actually seen but I was on Gendou.com looking and so the song so I listen and wow, they've got sweet music xD As for my stalker ash; I had him last year, I had him last year but it still goes back and forth. o.O he's a fiesty one. *ahem at least more than you know who* I was bending over my lunch table one day talking to my friend Kay and he snapped the strap of my thong! *gasp* o.o yeah I slapped him hard for that one. (o.O that was probably the worst of it though) anywho >> that's all I have to say other than YAYZ cause I'm happy and my boyfriend and I are still dating and everything is going UBER ^_^ | |||
Thursday, December 15, 2005
.... ............... .......................don't hit me! *hides* <__< >___> Anmesia dust! *ahem* Well as it seems...it's almost Christmas and I'm finally updating..Now I just need something to say. ¬ ¬ I'll start with this; I get my license soon ^_^ like, in January. I could have had it in early september but I was busy over the summer...and stuff. Oh oh! And I got a new boyfriend ^_^; He's such a sweetie *giant smile* ¬ ¬ I must have a thing for tall guys or something..because my last 3 boyfriends were 5'11 6'0 and my current is 6'2. (hey they're tall to me! I'm short : D ) Which reminds me..I still have a bunch of christmas shopping to do..gah! I've been sick for a couple days and haha bitches I'm off school for another snow day xD Thank you Knox County! Things have been much better now ^_^; I feel loved... Of course I can never get ahold you Ashley (Lamer) -.- I'm gonna beat you Missie. Mwhaha and I forgot to tell you Ash! I got a new stalker! xDDDD As if I don't have enough as it is : P (surprising isn't it? Me? Have a stalker? Noooo) But to the point of matters...Guess what everyone! I've got some art in Russia ^_^; I was selected for a gallery to have my art featured there; cool isn't it? Heehee I didn't even think I had that good of stuff, but it's all good. I'm looking at colleges and ironically (by no means did this happen on purpose) my honey and I have been looking into the same college! Heehee. (btw, looking into Columbia College in Chicago [IL]) That or maybe Brook Institute of Photography, Santa Barbara (o_O isn't that were Tricia goes?) Heehee, Sullivian college in Louisville KY (I know Kentucky >>) but Sullivian is really nice! 100% job placement...people go on to higher things there...and they have APARTMENTS! Not dorms, APARTMENTS...of course tutition is like 40k a year >< who the hell can afford that? Anyway..just looking for scholarships it seems. Yeah, so I'll post some art if you guys are interested (or not? O_o oh well too bad for yous) This would be me and my sweetie ^_^;; also my best friend xD or that's what he was at the time of this drawing. (newbie photoshopper btw)  ******** This would be a drawing of my character Medamoria; from another current manga called "Queen of the Graves." It's about princess (cheesy at first) who learned the art of necromacy (controlling the dead/ bring the dead to life..sort of) so she could bring back her lover that her father killed (Her lover was a grave keeper) After the performance however, she found herself unable to give up the art and stayed a necromancer. Throughout the years she found herself in a place where The god of heaven and the demon of hell are fighting for her soul as well as war with each other over the souls that Medamoria has commanded. Should the souls of the dead, stay dead or are they fair game for the living? (that was a brief on the story. I'm still working out some kinks)  Another drawing of medamoria; slightly different style. The drawing is titled "Reaching for Hell" Refering to that matter of her life are upside down and her logic is twisted. ..so forth and so on..  This my friend, is Jameson ^_^; >> BISHIE! Lineart AND coloring done by me Thanks ^_^; He's the Prince from a short story I'm writing called "A Step Beneath Me" It's a rather twist tale of Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet; with the similarities of two people, two kingdoms, tragedy and murder, however in my tale, it has a lot about politcal science and the stance of a monarchy. Aerabella, my main character and her best friend Jameson, are from two kingdoms. Aerabella is from the West Kingdom and Jameson from the East. However the East Kingdom is falling into ruins while the West is prosperous (sp o.O) anywho their fathers arrange for them to be married to save the East kingdom and unite them. However, Aerabella, who by no means would disagree being married to her best friend refuses the proposal. She does not want to be part of the monarchy, and no long part of the Royal family. Jameson however, has gentle and kind hearted as he is (but by no means weak) would do anything for his dear Aerabella except refuse the marriage! For he wants to save his people. As you can see where this is going, there is bound to be problems. There's some gangs, rivalries and >_> and a lot of sword fighting and poison. Any feedback?  Well that's it for now...perhaps I'll update in another year? : D Just joking...(seriously. if I can remember >>) anyway Take care everyone! | |||
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Well as for updates I really don't know what to say today. So I shall rant about my family problems because my confounded friend james is not on right now for me to vent to *sigh* So you all have to be stuck listening... You see this was me at the age of 13  -------------------------------->>> I was somewhat happy because 1. my mother was not yet married w00t. And I did not have my son of a bitch cold heartless stepfather around. (realize I'm just ranting here becasue I'm angry) and 2. I didn't move yet. So you know, I had JUST started making some friends at Tree (Tree of Life, old school here) and then I LEAVE. And you want to know where I have to go? CENTERBURG. It's LITERALLY the MIDDLE of the MIDDLE of NOWHERE. People grow their own Marijuana here...and no one knows. And because centerburg is so freakin' poor, they snort bacon bits because they can't afford to get crack and there's more pigs than people. (Not to mention a few ((who am I kidding, most)) of the guys in the school are just as much as the pigs on their farms.) I mean, I thought it was bad that when I walked home from school at Tree I had to alternate my routes because of stalkers and perverts. ((for heaven's sake people I'm not even that pretty *points to picture*)) But at Centerburg I've never had to kick so many guys in the balls for grabbing my ass. It's horrible. And the dress code is horrible strict so it's not like I look like a slut or something. Hell I'm known for my layers. (The skirt over pants is so my style by NY NY baby!) And I KNOW I'm not the nicest person there. My layers come with attitude and so does my debate skills. It's like the students there have never seen someone actually say something BACK to a teacher. So after having guys tickle my sides to no end, I'm fed up with school. humph.. As for my family, Well my mother is bitchier than usual. And I already mentioned what I thought about my step father. After having nothing but screaming and yelling and hair pulling, punching, kicking and biting. Stealling and lying and starving for weeks on end this summer. I'm ready to leave. So I told my mother to leave me the fuck along and locked myself in my room ((hence the whole crackers and coke thing)). They said I if I wanted to leave I could. So I'm lookin' cause one I leave, I ain't never comin' back. Eva. Neva eva eva. ((It's summer, and no I don't generally pronounce my "ever"s with an a, {{inside joke yo}})) So yeah, I'm kinda a bit homeless right now. Well not literally. I could be living next door with my friend at my old house, or I could living in Australia. ((exaggerated example thanks)) It's just really unpredicitable. My mother claims she doesn't want me to leave. But I just can't stand being in that house. I can't stand looking at her and seeing her smile at me just knowing that maybe even 5 minutes later she could be bitchin' at me because I forgot something or there's always something wrong. It's like the expect me to be perfect. Well let me tell you something folks. I'M FUCKING NOT! I never was, and I hell for sure will never be. Ever since I was a young child, nothing I did was right. I took care of everything because my fucking father had to go out and get drunk or beat me up. Well you know what, I'm sick of being the respoinsible one. I'm sick of having to take care of my mentally insane sister and knowing full well I can't get anything I want in my life. I'm sick of just being handed money just to get out my mother's face because she can't stand to look at me. You want to know how hard that is on me? I'll tell you how hard. I've tried to drown myself in a bathtub more time than you can count but never could beacuse I knew that the only reason I wanted to die so bad was to run from my stupid life and rub in my mother face that I was DEAD. But I never could. So I drag myself out and lay and bed and cry. I'd cry myself to sleep because it was the only time I could cry. No one would have to see me. No one would have to ask me "what's wrong kya?" or adam wouldn't have to say to me "Let me make it better kya-koi" Because there was nothing anyone could do to make it better. Nothing. So yeah...I'm done now.. | |||
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Yeah well life here in Centerburg really sucks. I live next to cows...gaaah. As most of you might know, I'm starting the joy of remixing music. My currents are just gaming music...you know, a couple of chrono trigger, so WW and OoT Zelda, FF(X). I'll probably find a way to share it somehow you know.. Lately though, I've been in a debate about the MJ trial. I'm so pissed off at the verdict. I mean think about...it's okay to be DIFFERENT..but he's just a freakin' nut. I'm sure we all know we have eccentric celeberities, but Jackson has crossed the line. And he was NOT guilty on all the stupid charges. And he's BROKE. That kinda tells you something. Frankly I believe the jurers were bribed nonetheless. And furthermore, earlier in the whole stupid situation, MJ had to pay the accusor to keep their mouth shut. (What the...) I mean, if there was nothing wrong, then why the hell did you have to pay them...HMMMM? I already know we have a screwed up justice system. I've had experience somewhat with it. It just pisses me off so much that people like him can get away because of the freakin' greed we have as americans. All because he's a celb, doesn't mean he doesn't touch little boys in wrong places people! Hell, he's so screwed up he probably do it more than we think. Okay okay, I'm done with my rant now..not much else to say other than go to my message board! woot. (yeah it's anime, big deal. it's more than that too) LINKAGE! My board. Go. NOW | |||
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